July 19, 2009

• C-, the grade i got for conduct the last monthly report card.
  
  It's clear that good academic results can't redeem a good conduct grade, but
  
  am I really that bad or . . . I don't have good conduct?
  
  Maybe i just don't get enough credit like other people . . .
  
  So, is it becuz I'm not the monitor?
  
  or I just don't seem to be listening at English classes?
  
  i know i am stubborn and not agressive in this, but I'm just being myself.
  
  Friends, tell me, am I just less lovable in front of teachers compare to other top students?
  
  Don't get me wrong, I don't like being a teacher's pet, it's excruciating . . .
  
  but . . . a lil candy treat is good once in a while, haha
  
  B-, C-, these are the grades i get for conduct in September, when my new teachers claimed that "they haven't known me so well and so give a relatively low grade"
  
  things changed after months, does it have to do with my results?
  
  believe me, I don't really give a damn to this, my mom cares about it much more than I do
  
  but, it makes me wanna ask more, why's that?
  
  I seem to not know myself more and more as days grow on, I just don't know what am I heading to, what should I stick to.
  
  ha, sometimes i don't wanna be a nerdy person with excellent academic performance, i wanna see what would I be and what differences are there if I were not a braniac.
  
  Guess I'll never get the answer
  
  Arrgg . . . it's summer that leads trains of thoughts run through my mind . . .
  
  I don' wanna grow up . . . i don't wanna take responsibilities, i don't wanna trigger troubles, I don't wanna think, I don't wanna be afraid
  
  I just wanna be loved in the way I wanna . . .

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