琴日的中秋係咁多年來最冇feel的一個.... 校報開完會, 返到屋企已經6點, 即刻o係梳發訓著左Zzzzz... 點知原來7點要出去食飯, 超唔願lor, 仲要對住o個家人.... 個月光又唔光, 又冇節日氣氛, 連月餅都食唔落(今日會食得落ga la xdd!!).... 多謝Carlos琴晚陪我傾左咁耐電話:)

我轉左wall paper呀, 係唔係好靚呢!!!! Outer Space is so hypnotizing . . . Lights and Little Boots gimme this feeling~

琴日Bio堂真係勁放肆lor LOL. 兩堂足足80分鐘同呀國吹水唱歌喪笑, 完全無視冬甩個爸爸hahaha~ 唉.... 佢進度咁慢, 幾多補課都冇用la (...) 唔通學校唔放棄o個o的放棄自己的人, 就要來放棄我地呢o的真係有心讀好佢的人? 學生唔好的野, 都係風條的問題... 歪風盛行, 點教都唔好....

而家一有時間, 諗到的野就係溫書... 愈來愈覺得前路好懞, 唔知點咁. 4433門檻, 連一個連遊戲規則都未定好的game, 點玩呀? 其實有時我覺得我地唔怪得補習, 而家讀書就好似係set個目標係玩嬴"考試"呢個遊戲... Who cares if you do it by yourself or with the aid of tutoring, the one with the highest marks wins it all... Goddamn government

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諗左好耐都唔知打mud, 咁就聽日先la"XD

Personal嘅野, 從來都唔會o係 煙密集o既facebook度講, 而係過來呢個荒廢左但係又唔會deserted的xanga講~

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F.5了.... F.5了.... 講多一次: F.5了

我今年真係mud都唔係好想搞, 我真係整係想讀好d書, 唔好好似f.4o個時是是但但. 上年真係感覺到自己退步了.... 唔係同人比, 係同自己比. 問心個句, 我真係有能力, 就係唔夠搏殺, 無論做mud都係. 仲有, 我咁多年來個問題始終係唔主動, 怕事, 唔積極, 做人唔夠爽快..... 有時係咁踩自己都覺得好似唔係太好, 但係呢d始終真係我最大最大最大的問題.... 想解決, 但係總係有d野holding me back.

都係個句, F.5啦... 接受唔到自己咁大個, 但係都唔似一個成年人.

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我都係一個心事從從的人.... 以前我會覺得係xanga成日打心事係(對我來講)懦弱的表現, 但係諗深一層, 有邊個會唔想有聽下佢的心事..... 我只係想, 有人聽下我講野, 咁就夠ga la=)

到到最後, 我知道我點都會ok~

既然上到你就update一篇啦!! Wa, 真係好鬼死耐冇上過黎啦, 好多野都唔同左... 原來有好多人既update rate都慢左好多, 我仲比自己張profile pic嚇親tim (...)

Exam . . . is all f*ed up~ I know I only got myself to blame, but people are just assholes asking for your marks and stuff on and on and on and on to make me feel so uncool and worse. Shut your cocksucking mouth already for God's sake. But I don't really give a damn to the shxt, my skin is thicker now~

睇黎我真係唔可以再係咁啦 . . . . . .

不過都暑暇囉, 緊係玩啦 hehe!!

之前苦惱緊去上海expo定Canada好, 而家expo就應該去唔到啦.... 但Canada仲有機, 但又唔一定去... Life is a bitch because making choices sucks.

咁其實我又幾想留o係香港過summer既, 話哂真係好耐冇試過. I know I missed a lot of fun for the past few years, so I really wanna spend some quality time w/ my friends =]

I still can't believe F.4 has ended like that . . .

琴日放學冇野做, o係度等去band, 就o係4E門口企左成個下晝... 分別同bao bao, loo yin kiu同Parkson傾左一陣野, 都幾enjoy~ o係短短的幾句話了解左大家少少, 其實真係幾好(excep jeff loo講的野本人不太感興趣外XD") 有時同人好輕鬆咁o爹兩句就會好滿足~~

今日去左科學聽倨名為"香港地質"的talk. 我平時都唔係o的一聽talk就訓的人, 但係今日位講者真係講得好悶 = =" 所以對唔住都間歇性訓左少少...

Adam Adam Adam Adam...
Allison Allison Allison Allison...
David David David David...
Demi Demi Demi Demi...

期待聽日去玩同埋返到屋企的工作(shh..)

P.S. Still in luv w/ Taylor Swift's "Monologue Song (La la la)" XD

It's been so long since I've last updated xanga~

Test Week is ova. but chilling ain't what I'm feeling right now.  I don't know, I lost all the motivation to work. Life's just been so hard > <" Craaaazy!

We had lunch w/ Francis today! I only knew that in the morning not til Carlos told me. Glad to see an old mate again.

I'm writing my late-hw of LS news-cut, on and off. I just reli don;t wanna do it. It's so hard. It's stink. It sucks hard.. Didnt see I'd say somethin' like this, but I reli don't like this. Ugghhhh!!

Hmmm... galaxies....

Life is so hard.... I can't believe I actually say somethin' like this

I gotta problem... of asking way too much when I have to do some kinda jobs or tasks or stuff. Even an easy task in people's eyes can sound like a Three Gorges Project to me, so I keep on asking and asking, just for more details and instructions... that's cuz I'm always so inseure of doing things I'm not used to doing, and sometimes, just because of the desire of perfction. But I know I always got people frustarted, and they might even think I'm not capable and smart and fast to complete the tasks . . . Get away that "everyone has their own flaws" kinda shh, I know this has been a big big problem... It seems at first I don't wanna mess things up, at the end, I either mess things up, or people take over my thing and complete it, way faster, way more effective, and a millions times more capable and reliable than I can ever be...

I just can't fit in maybe...

Now I know why Kelly made My December...

I really have to let go from . . .

How'd I walk this walk...

Worries' taken over

Are you there, are you watching me..?

I was wondering, would u cry for me, if I told u that I couldn't breathe

好多野做啊!!!

今年的職位:

1. 管樂團副團長
2. Music Club Secretary
3. 校報編輯

I finally feel the need to really do revision once in a while... not gon' lie, never felt this way before.

So much going on these days, good times!!

Syntho-electropop makes me wanna fall into the complexity of the kaleidoscopic galaxy...

Maybe Miss Lui was right, I have to start to read something.

To be real honest, I don't really get a book to read once in a while . . . . I rather run to the internet and surf and read and stuff

But I think I have to be a reader from now on . . . so I guess maybe I'll kick it off by going to the library tomorrow~ I probably would start with something I'm interested in --- maybe historical novels

Anyway, saturday is the day I develop self hate so easily...

F.4 til now, I get less complicated and I'm mostly happy with going my own way, but stuff get complicated day by day

(fuck off now...)